Wednesday, 11 March 2009
So, everything seems to get worse and worse as time goes by. I seriously need a change of scenery or i think i might explode. Right now to me, my problems seem so enormously huge that they dont seem to have a solution, and that sooner rather than later, im going to let down a whole bunch of people includin myself. I hate this feeling, its as though i am only waiting for the other shoe to drop, and my efforts to stopped it were in vain. I did everything i my power to do better, however now im just sitting with the stinking feeling that im a big failure. I know that in a couple of years, months even, all of this will seem so ridicusly silly i will feel ashame of thinking it was so important right now, but the problem is that RIGHT NOW, eveything is waiting to explode in my face. Im seriously getting desperate.