I have been quite busy the last couple of days, today i saw that one of my favorite bloggers has left her blog. The only thing i can say is the Christine, I WILL MISS YOU SO MUCH 

 Your blog was funny, interesting, and many times, the highlight of my day. 

YOur parture has left tears on my eyes. I hope you can return to us one day, or let us meet in another life.

Best of luck Christine.

Who are you?

Who are you?

Whose siluette i see in my dreams

Whose shadow seem to follow me

Oh who are you?

Whose voice is unknown, yet familiar to me,

Whose smell drifts on the air, and reach me

Who are you?

Oh who are you?

Who makes my heart pound

And make my eyes cry?

Who are you?

Oh who are you?

short poem i wrote a while back (say 2 years) that i found while looking at my old notebooks. I jusst feel this had to be here.

Finally its all over.

Hey guys,

Well, finally my exams finished, and i think i did pretty well :P so now that i am the wonderful stage of the year called vacations, i am now going to write in my blog, so in a little bit i shall continues with Flower, other stories, and you know all of the things i usually write here :P Well see ya around 

Love, Edward

I hope you understand

Hi guys, i know not many people reads my blog, but you who do are important to me so i want you to know, right now im having some family problems, and im also on finals, and my birthday is coming up this friday, so im really stressed right now, and when i write stressed out i never like what i write, so for a while (i hope that by next wednesday when my frickin' exams are overs ill feel better since finals are 70% of my stress) so "Flower" and, well, my whole blog, will be on pause for the time being. DONT WORRY I SHALL BE BACK!! i just need some time. 

Thanks for your understanding. and again, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING MY BLOG. to hear your comments always puts makes me SOOOOOOOO happy like you have no idea.

Well see ya guys. 

Love, Edward =D

Flower

There is a forest, far away from here. Its not even in this country, heck, its not even in this continent. I am even doubtful whether the forest is on earth, however i know it exists. In the middle of the forest there is a flower. This flower is surronded by trees, trees so old and tall that they never paid any attention to the little flower. However the flower grew very beautiful, always in the shadow of the trees around it, but it didnt mattered, few rays of sun got through the foliage of the trees every day and in this forest, rain is plentiful, but even though the flower had everything it needed, it was unsatisfied.

To be continue

Thank you so much Christine

 Thank you so much Christine for giving me the Golden heart Award. This means so much for me. I really like to see that other enjoy what i write, because even though it might not show it, every piece of things that i write here are parts of me. 

Anyways THANKS SO MUCH!

Please pay a visit to her her blog is so good.  CLICK HERE TO READ AN AWESOME BLOG FROM AN AWESOME PERSON!

The Giving Tree

Never in my life has a children's book made me cry. However, now at my 16 years of life, at the dawn of my 17th birthday, "The Giving Tree" has acomplished it. This book written and illustrated by Shel Silverstein narrates the story of a tree and a young boy. The boy would play with the tree and swing from tis branches, and eats its apples and sleep in the shade, and all was fine. However and unfortuantely, childhood doesn't last forever, and the boy grew up. 

You should definetely read this if you haven't and read it again if you have. Definetely a story that i will tell to my sons.

Freedom

The blue butterfly
Flaps its tiny wings
towards the clouds far away

This is just a preparation for the haiku festival on may. Hope you like it.

Due to the influenza epidemic in mexico, for the next week i shall be enclose to my house. and im so bored. i havent been allowed to go out all day. and seriously its so boring!! after all there are no girls in the internet.





(sorry i couldnt resist the joke. =P dont take it the bad way.)

Butterfly

I had a dream, were i was a butterfly. I didn't remembered that previously i had been a human, i just remembered being a butterfly. My wings were blue, with dots of lazy purple. It was a unique pattern in butterflies, i was the only butterfly with those wings. and when i flapped them, the colors seemed to make an almost hypnotic pattern. I flew and flew, from flower to flower, over a, what seemed, infinite flower field. But i noticed something. All the flowers were daisies. But i didn't cared. I just liked flying over them. A life as a butterfly was pretty carefree. I just flew over the flowers. Resting from time to time, and whenever i went down, other bugs seemed to be amazed at the beauty of my wings. During one of my rests, i went to down and decided to walk for a change, and walk among my fellow bugs. Rapidly, some bugs bega following me and my wings. It spooked me a bit but i didn't paid attention, i just wanted to walk. Suddenly a worm came out of the earth and he started asking me question.

"I am blind but i can sense that a lot of bugs are following you. Why is that?" The worm asked.
"Well i think its because of my colorful yet soothing wings" I replied.
"Whats so special about them?" the worm continued.
"Well they are the only wings with these colors around him" I said bluntly.
"What have you done to deserve them?" the worm asked simply. "Well we shall leave that for another day, for i have to dig wholes so water can reach the roots of the flowers" and he dug off.
I was left feeling a bit insulted and i flew off. Instantly the disappointed sighs of my follower bugs echoed in my butterfly ears. I went to the highest daisy and sat on the edge of one of its petals and i began thinking about what the worm had said.

I didn't contributed anything, i hadn't deserve my wings, yet the poor blind worm digs all day so this daisies won't die. He truly deserve wings.

Then i waked up.

Feeling a bit shaken at my dream, i decided to go walk outside (since it was still holidays i didn't had any problems. I went out to the yard and interestingly enough i found a butterfly on the ground. It didn't had the hypnotic pattern like i did but nevertheless, it was beautiful. I sat down next to the butterfly, and fortunately it didn't mind me sitting next to it. I reached my finger towards it and it walked right into it. I was amazed at the delicately pattern of its wings, because even though it wasn't as pretty as my own wings were, it still was amazing. after a couple of seconds the butterfly flew away, but i stayed where i was sitting. The night before it had been raining and the yard had lots of puddles of mud. The nearest one to me, i noticed had worms. I WAS SHOCKED!

Perhaps the butterfly flew when he saw the worm coming out of the puddle, and was ashamed as i was for not earning its wings.

Sunset

NOW THIS IS STOP MOTION ART!!

Moon of Cheese!

Today at 6:50 somthing AM, on my way to high school, as i turned around the corner and pass all the tall buildings on my way, I saw the moon for the first time in months. It was so breathtakingly beautiful, i couldn't stop watching it. It was in a wanning stage like in the photo, however, I swear there was somthing else, i dont know if it was the effect of dawn, or a shadow or the clouds, but it looked almost unreal. for a moment, everything was so perfect. quiet, and dark. It was just so pretty, I swear it was one of the most beautiful things i have seen in a LONG time.

Im back!

After a week of spending one week at my cousins house, im finally back at my sweet home. Not really much i can say except that well you know, its always invigorating to have one week off school and work, but now that im back i wish i had more time off to rest XD... well ill see you around later.

Challange

Hey my blogie friends: i have thought of this idea, and i hope some of you would like to do it. I shall put a question and after that i would like you all to answer it, and if you can/want add it to your own blog and ask your own bloggie friends to do ti, so that the idea spreads. If you like my idea well please do it :P anyways here is the question.

List 5 things you would like to do if they told you you had 1 week left for life from today.

here are the things i would do.

-The very first i would do would be to visit Japan and thats just because i love that culture so much, there besides sightseeing, i would go to the Naruto (a japenese cartoon that i love) studios and ask to meet the creator of the show (and that would make me so happy)

-Another thing i would do would be to sky dive and scuba dive (especially in fiji or hawaii). Even though im a coward for anything extreme, i would summon all my guts to do the first one. The scuba diving i dont think id be scare.

-Thirdly, (and this might sound a but silly) I would like to have a kiss from someone special, but a real kiss, not a cheek kiss, a real, warm, ful of love, kiss.

-Fourth, I would love to have a chat with any of the following people: -Masashi Kishimoto. AMazingPhil, HurricaneAubrey, Dudeneedaeaseonup, Steve Hawkins, Randall Munroe, Pope Bennedict XVI, Obama, Holly Mary Combs, Hugh Laurie, Alyssa Milano, and Satoshi Tajiri. There are persons, i admire/like/aspire ect...

-Finally, i would like to take my mom to the taj mahal and my father to Disneyland.

So those are 5 things i would like to do. What about you? leave an answer in you blog and tell me about it!

until next time...

If you have the time...

Hello world! well, I dont think im ready to post just yet however, if you find the time, please read a friend's blog. he is my best friend and i would really appriciate if you could check it out. READ HERE PLEASE

Weather.

Right now we are at 10 degrees celcius, the air is cold and the wind is harsh. At night there was rain so right now everything is wet. And i couldnt help but laughing. As spring is coming closer and closer, to me this kind of weather (after weeks of being at nearly 40°c) is the last of winter will have in a long time. Seriously when i woked up this morning, i couldnt help smiling as my imagination raced thinking of an old white bearded man in a icy blue tunic doing all hi could to fight off a young woman in a green flowery dress with gust of snow and rain. I just love cold wet weather so right now im enjoying the chill A LOT!!

Failure

So, everything seems to get worse and worse as time goes by. I seriously need a change of scenery or i think i might explode. Right now to me, my problems seem so enormously huge that they dont seem to have a solution, and that sooner rather than later, im going to let down a whole bunch of people includin myself. I hate this feeling, its as though i am only waiting for the other shoe to drop, and my efforts to stopped it were in vain. I did everything i my power to do better, however now im just sitting with the stinking feeling that im a big failure. I know that in a couple of years, months even, all of this will seem so ridicusly silly i will feel ashame of thinking it was so important right now, but the problem is that RIGHT NOW, eveything is waiting to explode in my face. Im seriously getting desperate.

Read this please =D

Hello guys, well i got an old friend of mine to start a blog and he did HURRAY FOR POWER OF PERSUATION!! 

Anyways, you should read his blog he is a highly skilled writter and as i said before, a good friend of mine. Here is the URL: rotciv149.blogspot.com

Please read it!

Word of the week

Sakura: Sakura, or commonly reffered to as "Japanese flowering cherry" is a a beautiful tree who's signature is its pink petals. One of the things i love is how their appearance changes a lot in winter and in spring. During winter Sakura's are bare and their beautiful leaves are gone. However, during spring, they are so breathtakingly beautiful you can't help but admire their beauty. Personally i admire these trees better during autumn (strange coincidence) because you are showered in a marvelous rain of all shades of pink. If you have the chance to get this tree by all means get it since it is really beautiful.

If you have read my past few entries, you would have guess im going through some hard time. however today, this is not the case, and i decided to start a video blog =D you should wait for it =D

Outside

Right now as im typing this, i am sitting in the stairs of my apartment building. Now my building is one of those who have the halways and staris between apartments without walls or roofs, meaining that they are "outside" as in nature, and man, it was AMAZING! The air breeze blewing through my hair and smelling the trees and hearing the birds (with my music of my laptop =D) well it was pretty cool. here are some photos i took.

Trust

Recently, a certain person who has autority over me, asked me if i trusted her. I automatically and withtout thinking, i said yes. However, later, when this person, lets call her M, found a certain paper containing priveledge information, i got into a lot of trouble. After i got scolded, enter a thinking state and reflected on if i truly trusted M to secrets i have. The main problem is that i feel that if M were to know things I know, then the consequences wont be nice. Now, i know that everyone should accept the consequences of his/her actions, however, people usually tried to avoid unplesants situations.

So now the real question rises. Do i trust M enough to tell her EVERYTHING? Do YOU trust one person at least one to tell him/her EVERYTHING?

Sleep

Seriously i never noticed the effect of a good night of sleep. Recently I got punish, and as that i couldnt stayed up past 10 pm. Yesterday was the first night i slept at said hour after several years of sleeping past 1 am. and SERIOUSLY it made such a big DIFFERENCE I couldn't quite believe it. For the first time in almost 2 years (not counting vacations or free days), i woke up happy. Seriously sleeping early is really really good, I strongly recomend it ^_^.

Reality

Today at school, my history teacher chastise a friend because he was spacing out. Her exact words were "Hey! pay attention! You're never in this reality!" And my friend came up with these words: "Whats so good about our reality?" An d that was it... That quote stayed with me all day long, and hasn't let me think straight. The main problem is that as soon as i came with a few answer to that, i came up with so much more that conter all those. I couldnt find any good reasons to want to be in our reality, at least in my reality. Seriously, I work a lot just to get yelled at, double cross, betrayed, punish, hit and/or ignored. So i dont know what to do. 

So this was another rant, i seem to be getting very ranty lately but well, i need to load off. Thanks for reading and any comment would be appriciated.

The Sea (haiku)

Fishes swim all day

Angry they cant fly

In the sea forever bound

Just a small piece i though of after hearing the sobs of a lonely goldfish in a pet store.

The real meaning of school.

Hi again, be warned as this is mainly an emotional relief, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!

So today i was talking with my tutor today and we were discussing the real meaning of school. Basically i just exploded and started babling out to my poor tutor, who had never seen me so shaken up. Basically what i said and is mainly true (at least for the schools i have been) is that the important thing now is the number. Know people dont care for the actual knowledge but the number in the paper. Parent especially at a young age give us the wrong message lately and that the vital part of school is the grade. Dont get me wrong, I know it is very important, but know instead of actually trying to learn students just want to get the top scores. Basically they could memorize it for the exam day but 2 or 3 weeks later, it would have gone away to nothingness. Students dont care to UNDERSTAND what they are studying, why should they? They have been thought that the important thing to get into a good college and get a good job is the danm grade. Because of this cheating increases, stress increases and actual knowledge is not being transmitted good enough. Seriously the educational system needs to change.

What does it all means

WARNING: this is going to be a personal blog which means that it will mainly have the thoughts of a teenager who is pretty dramatic. You have been warn, so read at your own risk.

Ok so this is the deal, for the past few weeks ive been feeling emptiness all over. Things i used to like mean nothing to me anymore, sometimes i do find the fun i used to have but only for a few minutes before the boredom kicks in. I dont seem to find the competitive desire i used to have when i play chess or video games against my friends. My fmaily situation isnt making it any better. I dont know who to express it, it seems i have fall into a void, a crack where it seems i cant move on. I feel im not doing anything with my life. So, seriously, what does it all means? is it even worth the effort? It seems that i dont identify myself with my friends, or that somehow we have change a lot. TO BE CONTINUE...

Lack of Inspiration

Being of creativity
Show yourself to me
Invisible to my eyes
Show me your light
Muse of inspiration
Wont you show yourself
To make this soul
Sing again with glee